no longer a memory

yesterday morning (oct 26) i was having doubts kung tutuloy pa ba ako sa master's commission -- medyo makulimlim kasi (alam mo yun, mas masarap mahiga at manood ng dvd or makinig ng gospel music)... but in all honesty, tinatamad ako. tsaka, nag-iisa lang ako. tapos, wala na talaga akong pera - yung huling P1,000 na lang na naipon ko ang gagastusin ko hanggang sa susunod na sweldo.

pero hindi ko maintindihan - may kurot akong nararamdaman, mahinang kurot pero alam mong "holy kurot"....

let me tell you the story behind the story...

i think it was 2000, or 1999 perhaps when God allowed me to witness a ministry that forever changed my life. that was the first Blueprints Conference, held in BBC when God "introduced" me to this young talented and on-fire Christians (much, much younger than me) dancing under the powerful annointing of the Holy Spirit. Yes, they REALLY have talents (and Praise God for that), but most importantly, the Spirit of the Lord was dwelling in them - ang galing! bawat kumpas ng kamay, bawat bagsak ng paa, bawat ekspresyon sa mukha, ibang klase. ibang-ibang-iba ang pakiramdam ko nun. i know, God was telling me something.

from then on, i decided, kailangang maging part ako ng master's commission. kailangan na makasali ako sa kahit isa sa mga workshops nila at maging part ng isang batch.

but you know what? it never happened. i've meet Christians, who became part of the MC workshops (we even borrowed tapes from them para gawin namin sa church), my cousin who is a missionary in X was also trained by MC, last year duon pa sa church natulog ang ilang grupo ng MC-Olongapo (pero hindi ko alam na me workshop pala!) and that very same event, kasama kami ng mga 'newly graduates' ng MC na magstep-call sa isang daughter church namin (mismo!)

i asked the Lord, "kailan ba darating ang time ko?"

and now this - merong opportunity. the sunday before the workshop, our associate pastor told me na meron daw workshop. FINALLY! the moment i have been waiting for!

tapos, the very morning ng 'conference' bigla akong tinamad. BUT OUR GOD IS A GOD OF PURPOSE. alam kong Siya ang dahilan kaya ako naging part ng 2-day conference na ito.

BLESSED...

then i heard a story of a brother (whom i do not know personally but will forever challenge me) a 16-year old kid named Christian Marasigan who died because of a seemingly innocent accident. his story reminded me of how little time i have... and his story stirred up an overwhelming wake up call. his death proves that compared to eternity, our life here on earth is but short.

BLESSED...

then there's the lesson of the ants - how these little creatures inspired a movement that is shaking and will shake nations... "MISSION SWARMING"

BLESSED...

a revelation of how much we owe our Muslim brothers - an enlightenment... that more to what the news tells about them (labelling them as terrorists, etc), that they are our brothers whom God has blessed, and will bless,

BLESSED...

that more to becoming a part of a team, is becoming a part of an extended family - unseen yet heard of.

BLESSED...
because more to knowing Christ, more to making Him known
is a realization that i am here and i can make a diffence.

amen