the girl who lived inside a box

there was once a girl who lived inside a box.

she thought she had everything inside the box - it was dark, but it was comfortable enough. it was peaceful and she believed that living inside the box is the most safest place in the world.

until one day, a small portion of the box peeled off showing a glimpse of the world outside. the girl peeked and saw strange things she never knew existed. it was noisy, the colors were too bright to her eyes... but that fleeting moment somehow gave her a nudge, and think differently - to question the "norm" and to ask "what if?"

the girl felt a certain uncertainty and started doubting herself, there was also a strong sense of curiosity - of an urge to go out and explore. she had to.

AND SHE DID.

the girl never came back inside the box.


sometimes, life has a way of waking you up and allowing you to see things in a different perspective.

the question is, are you willing to take the plunge or not?

that song...

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

#UnsentLetterSeries

"Research" led me to Shakira Sison's "Unsent Letters".

Last September.. i sent mine.

On a daily basis since the day I sent it, I'd check my email hoping to see my letter published.

I got the surprise of my life yesterday when I checked my email.

The letter was published last October 28th.

some days...

...i feel empty
...i feel sad
...i think and say bad things about other people

for you.. a thousand times over...

some words left unspoken
some promises left broken
some moments left unshared
some memories forgotten

some poems left unwritten
some songs left unsung
some letters left unsent
some secrets kept

you were my beautiful chaos
masterly crafted in such a way that brings awe and fear
you were an irony of emotions and everything in between
it's either we sink, or we swim...

Ang Pagbabalik

madalas...
nakakalimot ang isang tao
sa mga bagay na halos bumuo ng kaniyang pagkakakilanlan

ilang taon man ang lumipas
mananatili ang ugong ng nakaraan
na magbabalik
at muling magpapa-pintig ng pusong
matagal na hindi tumibok

magbabalik
ang mga pangarap na makailang-ulit
na nilubog ng kasalukuyan

at tulad ng along muli't-muling hahampas sa dalampasigan
gaya ng minsang awit na nalimutan

ang daluyong ng unang pag-ibig
ay manunumbalik
mas maalab
mas matapang

2013: Weird Dream

Nung isang araw, nanaginip ako:

Pinapagalitan ako ni TL Liz kasi umabsent ako kahapon kasi ang dahilan ko, namatay daw ang tatay ko. Sabi niya sa akin, "eh matagal nang patay ang tatay mo ah!"

Tapos, nung na-realise ko na patay na nga pala si papa, iyak daw ako nang iyak. hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero iyak ako nang iyak.

Nung nagising ako, ang sakit-sakit ng dibdib ko.